I am foggy from the desire to connect with my family. My father lives with my brother in Buda TX, a few miles from the Austin Convention Center. I'll be living in my rental car near the convention center for the next couple of weeks. My brother hasn't been able to get my dad to call me all year.
Full disclosure, when I spoke to him on his birthday in October (2017), it was the first time we'd spoken in 4 months and the first time we'd spoken on his birthday in 25 years. When we spoke last summer on Father's Day it was the first time I'd heard his voice in about 7 years. I haven't seen him in twice that long. Since we all convened to bury my grandfather. I had called him on Father's Day, a Bonnaroo tradition, as long as I had a number to call him. He always answered.
Now I have my little brother and his cell phone. A young man, six months younger than my own firstborn, raising his own 4 year old son. I don't want him to feel in the middle. I do wish to see my father. He'll literally be right down the road.
Without suppressing or compartmentalizing my emotions, I shall draw forward into the ocean of opportunity that is the SouthXSouthWest Film & Music Conference. With American leaders like Bernie Sanders, Jim Gaffigan, Hasan Minaj, Melinda Gates, and Spike Lee I will swim with like minded leaders from around the world.
I will be doing live broadcasts from my podcast channel as often as technologically possible (permissions & power). Check out Full Disclosure Asheville on Podbean, Stitcher or at www.xina.rocks #newwebsite
Shiva shall release me from all paternal ties of guilt, shame or obligation, while upgrading my personal relationship dynamics to support positive masculine energy, forgiveness and unconditional love. Ganesha provides infinite solutions while removing all obstacles to companionship, knowledge and success.
Kali walks with me, crone Tzaykalianna, managing my rage, frustrations or fear. She turns toward those who carry limited perceptions of me with the fiery gaze of enlightenment and full knowing of themselves. Quan Yin leads me with truth, grace and the comfort of being fully realized throughout my human journey on Earth. She holds me in my rest, rejuvenating and expanding my dreams.
May Lakshmi set my coffers to overflow and guide you to your own highest purpose of service and self-fullfillment.
(((((((((((O))))))))))) Namaste.